My darling Angela, I have purposely left it until now to write something just to you. If is your last night on this earth and I can’t bear to think of life without you. Over the last few years I have had some of the most difficult conversations with you. On many occasions, you phoned me late at night with your devastating news and wanted to know the truth and what was in store ahead but asked me to keep it to myself. It goes without saying that they were some of the most difficult conversations I have ever had to have. Nobody in this world knows this, but after putting the phone down to you, I cried and cried and cried. Next time we saw each other, they were unsaid words. I have the most wonderful memories of you, as others have alluded to, wonderful New Years parties, birthday parties and general get togethers with the NCT clan. We really have had some truly wonderful, memorable times. There was also the time that we went to Scotland for ‘English Allans’ birthday and for years after your boys referred to it as the weekend with ‘those girls!’ Well we are proud to be those girls and had one of the best weekends away. You were truly an inspiration and I will remember you for so many reasons. I promise you one thing, every time I go to complain about something I will stop and ask myself, what would Angela do? You never, ever complained about the normal life - there are many of us that can learn from that. You have been so kind to me over the years - especially at my lowest times but so very practical and I am truly grateful for that. You will consume my day tomorrow and many more after that I am sure. Please don’t worry about Alan, Danny and Jamie there are many of us who are looking out for them and I promise we always will. Rest in peace my dear, dear friend and I am a better person for having known you. Jules xxx